蓝色是忧郁、是恬静。音乐是激情、是沉淀。我的心情很多时候就是这么样地充满冲突性。即使在人多的时候,还是觉得寂寞。总觉得在追求某种看不着、摸不透的东西。不知道为什么追,只知道害怕错过。面对许多复杂、说不清的不安情绪时,我逃进我的文字里。这是我的避风港。我的秘密天地。这是我。欢迎来到我孤芳自赏的世界.
Sunday, February 26, 2012
什麼時候我才可以 進入你的心
「秘密」
詞:張震嶽
總在閉上雙眼之後 才能看見你
這是一個心中秘密 偷偷在愛你
你卻不知道 有人在想你
總在黎明來臨之前 我還是清醒
什麼時候我才可以 進入你的心
好想對你說 我正在想你
也許在你的心中早就已經有人進去
或許你不曾接受真正的愛真誠的情
遺忘吧過去的事 不要再懷疑
我彷彿可以聽見你的心跳你的聲音
不要只有在夢中才能看你才能靠近
我可以慢慢的等 直到你離去
總在閉上雙眼之後 才能看見你
這是一個心中秘密 偷偷在愛你
你卻不知道 我正在想你
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最近迷上这首歌,每天要听上好几回,很能舒缓紧绷的情绪。《秘密》这首歌是1997年由张震岳创作主唱,收录于《这个下午很无聊》专辑,唱着年轻男孩暗恋的心情。 如今许茹芸唱出爵士版,编曲添了扑朔迷离的氛围,引人入胜。因恋爱原本就是一道迷,可以来无影,去也无踪。由许茹芸唱来,暗恋少了痛苦,多了处之泰然的心情。暗恋得不求回报、不计后果。
近年来,因为唱片界萎缩,出新唱片的风险高,就连曾是销售天后的许茹芸也难逃灌录口水专辑的命运。许茹芸的歌与歌声,我小时候不喜欢。后来我长大,因为很多人说我的歌声和她很像,混合很多气音,所以开始细听她的歌,逐渐喜爱。其实许茹芸是适合唱爵士和电音歌的,可惜她遗弃K歌转向这道歌路时,就是她事业走下坡的时候。
Thursday, February 23, 2012
水一片,我们都在思念
作詞:周耀輝 / 盧凱彤@人山人海
你太了不起 害我長一身魚鱗
冰冷我血液 從此閉不上眼睛
你給的空氣 害我水面上窒息
傷害我自己 用魚鰓拼命呼吸
* 不顧一切 把我勾到岸邊
死生一線 送你刺痛體驗
當初一別 我會為你思念
終有一天 你會為了我而哽咽 (我會為了你而)
鑽到深海裡 吞著大聲的回憶
擺動我身體 忘了什麼叫安靜
朝向漁網裡 反正感情都如此
剩下我自己 用魚刺雕刻故事
Repeat *
不顧一切 把我勾到岸邊
死生一線 永遠刺痛的拉扯
水一片 我們都在思念
終有一天 你會為了我而哽咽
我們都為了愛哽咽
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听卢凱彤的歌,一种奇妙的感觉油然而生。时间像倒回十多岁时,初听陈绮贞的音乐般震撼、感动。 陈绮贞后期移向抒情摇滚,让我怀念她最初清新、单纯accoustic, 没有修饰的风格。多年后,卢凱彤再以强烈的个人风格,赢得我的青睐。这首《哽咽》与陈绮贞的《鱼》有前呼后应的效果。同样是矛盾,只是《鱼》唱出跳出水前的期望,《哽咽》却道出跳出水后的互相毁灭。
最爱中间那段像似哽咽后,因抽气而引发的停顿。这样说来,哽咽不就像垂死挣扎的喘息?一个让你爱到死去活来的人,你敢要吗?
Sunday, February 19, 2012
Beauty Personified 2011 - The Great Decline
My blogshop Beauty Personified did not do as well as I had hoped in 2011. In fact, it reverted to how it did in 2010, which is a drop of about 46%. At a profit of $4652.41, it's about $2200 less earnings than the all time high in 2010. The truth is, the blogshop was doing well all the year till the last quarter of the year, then came a drastic decline that came from nowhere.
I did think of quitting the blogshop but realistically speaking, more than $4k of spare change is still respectable money that helps offset my ever-increasing taxes and with excess to sponsor me on a short trip yearly.
I think it's important to think about why the great decline came.
1) The exponential growth of plus size blogshops is alarming. I used to enjoy some sorta oligopoly, but the number of players in the field has outgrown the growth of this rather niche market of customers. With more choices, customers can now compare prices and value-added services, so it's natural that they will tend to flock to cheaper options, and if they are not happy with that, they may return to me. Hopefully.
2) Competing with lower prices of my respectable peers has been difficult. Because there is no market yardstick, the same item can sell between a range of $20 in the online sphere. I have to say that the profit margins of some of the competitors are quite remarkably low. Possibly they are setting shop for the sake of pursuing a hobby rather than to profiteer. For the amount of work I invest in my blogshop, it's hard to move downwards. Therefore, in order to charge a little lower, I've decided to scale down my work on the blog.
3) Departure of bulk-buying customers. 2011 saw the departure and decline of a handful of most loyal customers of my blogshop. Perhaps due to the economic downturn, i do notice that many customers have cut down on the number of items ordered. There's nothing much I can do about this, except to showcase more special items, whilst keeping the price of items in mind.
4) I did some reflection and felt that perhaps some of my sprees which take too long to end. I'm an online shopper myself and I do hope to get my purchases asap too. So the logical solution would be to have shorter sprees with small orders to create faster deliveries.
I would still like to continue with the blogshop since it's been 4 years of labour, and it truly is, a hobby.
I did think of quitting the blogshop but realistically speaking, more than $4k of spare change is still respectable money that helps offset my ever-increasing taxes and with excess to sponsor me on a short trip yearly.
I think it's important to think about why the great decline came.
1) The exponential growth of plus size blogshops is alarming. I used to enjoy some sorta oligopoly, but the number of players in the field has outgrown the growth of this rather niche market of customers. With more choices, customers can now compare prices and value-added services, so it's natural that they will tend to flock to cheaper options, and if they are not happy with that, they may return to me. Hopefully.
2) Competing with lower prices of my respectable peers has been difficult. Because there is no market yardstick, the same item can sell between a range of $20 in the online sphere. I have to say that the profit margins of some of the competitors are quite remarkably low. Possibly they are setting shop for the sake of pursuing a hobby rather than to profiteer. For the amount of work I invest in my blogshop, it's hard to move downwards. Therefore, in order to charge a little lower, I've decided to scale down my work on the blog.
3) Departure of bulk-buying customers. 2011 saw the departure and decline of a handful of most loyal customers of my blogshop. Perhaps due to the economic downturn, i do notice that many customers have cut down on the number of items ordered. There's nothing much I can do about this, except to showcase more special items, whilst keeping the price of items in mind.
4) I did some reflection and felt that perhaps some of my sprees which take too long to end. I'm an online shopper myself and I do hope to get my purchases asap too. So the logical solution would be to have shorter sprees with small orders to create faster deliveries.
I would still like to continue with the blogshop since it's been 4 years of labour, and it truly is, a hobby.
Saturday, January 28, 2012
我不要聲嘶力竭的情歌, 來提示我需要你的時刻
孤獨患者
填詞:小寒
歡笑聲 歡呼聲
炒熱氣氛 心卻很冷
聚光燈 是種蒙恩
我卻不能 喊等一等
我真佩服我 還能幽默
掉眼淚時 用笑掩過
怕人看破 顧慮好多
不談寂寞 我們就都快活
我不唱聲嘶力竭的情歌
不表示沒有心碎的時刻
我不曾攤開傷口任宰割
癒合 就無人曉得 我內心挫折
活像個孤獨患者 自我拉扯
外向的孤獨患者 有何不可
笑越大聲 越是殘忍
擠滿體溫 室溫更冷
萬一關燈 空虛擾人
我卻不能 喊等一等
你說你愛我 卻一直說
說我不該 窩在角落
策劃逃脫 這也有錯
連我脆弱 的權利都掠奪
我不要聲嘶力竭的情歌
來提示我需要你的時刻
表面鎮定並不是保護色
反而 是要你懂得 我不知為何
活像個孤獨患者 自我拉扯
外向的孤獨患者 需要認可
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新加坡把歌词写得好的,实在少。小寒便是其一。写寂寞的歌很多,也容易引起我的共鸣。记得“寂寞”是当年我写歌的重要题材,因为我的歌都是在我最寂寞时,才写出来的。人多时也感到寂寞,就是真正深透到骨子里的孤单,是一种心病。强颜欢笑是伪装痛苦的出口,这也是我当年有过的感觉。如今,我不再写歌,也不是因为没了寂寞,只是学会了与它相处,与它独处。快乐也逐渐回来。
Friday, January 20, 2012
步步惊心之当年的偶像
看《步步惊心》部分的感动来自见证吴奇隆和郑嘉颖从高处而降,又从低谷翻身。曾经的偶像蜕变为有层次的好演员。后天的努力终于匹配了先天的条件。如今再红,红的有理。
吴奇隆当年真是大红大紫。才华有限,但凭着外形虏获多少少女芳心。我小学毕业还和同学们大合唱他的《祝你一路顺风》呢。怎么转眼就20年了!长江后浪推前浪,90末期流行优质偶像,吴奇隆放弃了歌坛,进军影艺界,先去香港,后往大陆,一路浮浮沉沉,直到近年。再次窜红,吴奇隆反而以平常心对待。郑嘉颖也是。当年曾是歌坛力捧的新星,后来与师傅闹翻,转战台湾,出了首单曲《因为爱上你》就没下文。好像是演了一出大陆戏意外红了,无线热切重新追求,就这样慢慢成了视帝。事业又如日中天。
见他们又有好成绩,我宛如与失散多年的好友重逢般开心。永远不要小看命运。它能让你在绝望时,起死回生,再造奇迹。
吴奇隆当年真是大红大紫。才华有限,但凭着外形虏获多少少女芳心。我小学毕业还和同学们大合唱他的《祝你一路顺风》呢。怎么转眼就20年了!长江后浪推前浪,90末期流行优质偶像,吴奇隆放弃了歌坛,进军影艺界,先去香港,后往大陆,一路浮浮沉沉,直到近年。再次窜红,吴奇隆反而以平常心对待。郑嘉颖也是。当年曾是歌坛力捧的新星,后来与师傅闹翻,转战台湾,出了首单曲《因为爱上你》就没下文。好像是演了一出大陆戏意外红了,无线热切重新追求,就这样慢慢成了视帝。事业又如日中天。
见他们又有好成绩,我宛如与失散多年的好友重逢般开心。永远不要小看命运。它能让你在绝望时,起死回生,再造奇迹。
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