莫文蔚的新专辑很用心，所有歌曲由她包办作曲，配合李焯雄的词，创作出首首佳作。可惜因为不够主流，专辑看来将是遗珠之憾。这让我不禁想起莫文蔚多年前的“全身”专辑。错的是marketing做得不够，但更多的是逢不对时，制作人高估了听众的音乐鉴赏能力。这样的音乐，希望优质的音乐颁奖典礼，不会再错过它。
这里推荐“拉活”专辑较主流的一首歌，专辑最后的“安可”，在我看来叙述一段突如其来，却又短暂的缘分。
李焯雄真的是一位诗人。其中“爱过不该被爱的，不爱应该被爱的”最耐人寻味。希望有朝一日，李焯雄和莫文蔚能缔造另一个媲美林夕和王菲的音乐完美组合。
安可
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快乐也是负荷
但我们习惯安可
一直在重播
过去比未知可靠得多
爱过不该被爱的
不爱应该被爱的
我们却相遇了多难得
等这么久没白过
明天你是否依然爱我
老问题像一首旧歌
空气里你心里是否涌起
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再多
但时间不许可
该要走了不少不多
留住一点什么
已足够思念从此饱和
爱过不该被爱的
不爱应该被爱的
我们却相遇了多难得
所以真的舍不得
明天你是否依然爱我
老问题像一首旧歌
空气里你心里是否涌起
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承不承认
就算很残忍
在最美一刻
按快门才能去定格
相对的永恒
爱过不该被爱的
不爱应该被爱的
我们却相遇了多难得
所以真的舍不得
明天你是否依然爱我
先不急不用回答我
只要你会因为这样记得我
这刹那
爱过
Sunday, March 09, 2008
Monday, March 03, 2008
Eddie
It's queer for me to dedicate a blog entry to a colleague, but I feel compelled to because of the emotions I am experiencing over the past weeks.
Eddie was one of my supervisors and together we work on one of the diplomas in our institution. Basically I support him administratively. Sometimes I feel like his secretary. In the very beginning, we even worked on our CCA together. But then he got promoted so I got to work even more closely with him. I see him almost everyday, and he sits very close by.
We were never really friends, but occasionally he would send me home because he lived nearby and he had a car. And I will sit in anyone's car if they offer to give me a ride because the journey home is so damn far. So we chit chat on our way home.
Time flew and we had collaborated for around 1.5 years. One day my reporting supervisor hinted that someone in the management team of our department had resigned. Based on the clues she mentioned, I got the nudging feeling that it was Eddie.
Then came the dreams. For a few consecutive days, I dreamt of Eddie in various types of scenarios to do with departure. One of them had Eddie announcing his departure to me, on the very day that he was going to tell him about the same piece of news. Another one even had he dying, and me find out about it through the papers. (In that dream, Eddie died from being slashed by a serial killer). I woke up feeling very worried, before realising stupidly that it was just a nonsensical dream. Or was it? After all, I have never dreamt anything like this of any departing colleague, not even the very close ones.
Dreams are very telling. Freud says they are a figment of our subconsciousness. They reveal things that we never knew we never knew. So what does my dream say about what I feel about Eddie?
To be honest, I would say that I don't really adore Eddie. He has never been my supporter during appraisals (he admittedly said so). He has breathed down my neck so many times with his unbelievable deadlines and super meticulous nature. And he has even dared to criticise me before. And anyone who knows me, knows that I dislike most forms of criticism. Eddie also has the most wicked sense of humour. He has very unkind words for unkind people, which I laugh at a lot too. (I wonder what he says behind my back).
But still despite all that, I guess my dreams are telling me that I really do like him after all. Not in an amourous way of course. (I've come to the realisation that I will never fall for an ugly guy because I am a "visual" person, and Eddie is well, ugly).
Eddie has just left my organisation. I stare at his empty desk today for the first time, and feel sad knowing that I will never hear his criticisms, cruel jokes, or see his ugly face again.
I miss him.
Eddie was one of my supervisors and together we work on one of the diplomas in our institution. Basically I support him administratively. Sometimes I feel like his secretary. In the very beginning, we even worked on our CCA together. But then he got promoted so I got to work even more closely with him. I see him almost everyday, and he sits very close by.
We were never really friends, but occasionally he would send me home because he lived nearby and he had a car. And I will sit in anyone's car if they offer to give me a ride because the journey home is so damn far. So we chit chat on our way home.
Time flew and we had collaborated for around 1.5 years. One day my reporting supervisor hinted that someone in the management team of our department had resigned. Based on the clues she mentioned, I got the nudging feeling that it was Eddie.
Then came the dreams. For a few consecutive days, I dreamt of Eddie in various types of scenarios to do with departure. One of them had Eddie announcing his departure to me, on the very day that he was going to tell him about the same piece of news. Another one even had he dying, and me find out about it through the papers. (In that dream, Eddie died from being slashed by a serial killer). I woke up feeling very worried, before realising stupidly that it was just a nonsensical dream. Or was it? After all, I have never dreamt anything like this of any departing colleague, not even the very close ones.
Dreams are very telling. Freud says they are a figment of our subconsciousness. They reveal things that we never knew we never knew. So what does my dream say about what I feel about Eddie?
To be honest, I would say that I don't really adore Eddie. He has never been my supporter during appraisals (he admittedly said so). He has breathed down my neck so many times with his unbelievable deadlines and super meticulous nature. And he has even dared to criticise me before. And anyone who knows me, knows that I dislike most forms of criticism. Eddie also has the most wicked sense of humour. He has very unkind words for unkind people, which I laugh at a lot too. (I wonder what he says behind my back).
But still despite all that, I guess my dreams are telling me that I really do like him after all. Not in an amourous way of course. (I've come to the realisation that I will never fall for an ugly guy because I am a "visual" person, and Eddie is well, ugly).
Eddie has just left my organisation. I stare at his empty desk today for the first time, and feel sad knowing that I will never hear his criticisms, cruel jokes, or see his ugly face again.
I miss him.
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