Thursday, August 08, 2013

给妹妹的一封信

每个小女生在知道自己要变姐姐的那一刻,都希望能一个妹妹,就可以一起玩娃娃,互绑头发。

我一生经历两场失望。不是弟弟不好,只是他们有秘密空间,是姐姐无法融入的。

感谢世上有一个你,弥补我没有妹妹的遗憾。即使我们年龄上有差距,但跟你在一起不会有距离。

一直知道你会出国深造。这里的天空锁不住你广阔的梦想,是时候出外闯一闯。

到了新地方,融入并享受那里的文化。交很多的朋友,因为他们会帮你减轻乡愁。但永远别忘了你的根,别忘了打通电话回家。

人的一生中总会遇见一些人,是无论你坐落在哪个城市,都无法取代的。

在我的生命里,那个人是你。

珍重再见。

Sunday, July 28, 2013

「冬眠」的新生命

十多年前写的歌,十多年后老师找出了它的和弦,送了我这份无价的礼物。

于是,它不再是抽屉里的一张纸,不再是记忆里的尘埃。多年后唱着,仿佛和从前的自己打了招呼。

有点感动,有些感慨。女孩你好,好久不见。

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

一个拥抱的距离

花了三年多,绕了一年的冤枉路。那段时间看着他因别人沉迷、因怕为了我分心而刻意疏远,如今后知后觉。我们都辛苦了。

几个月下来的相处,我知道也感激他对我的好。我惬意地、放纵地做自己。他如从前一样,依旧守护我。只是,现在的他不再沉默。有时看着他笑得象小孩似的,知道他跟我在一起是快乐的。

当然我还是有我的保留,毕竟我因他的逃避而受了一点小伤。我知道这个男人对我的影响。我依旧以保护自己为主。

什么拥抱亲吻在我身上都得等一等。我是你等了三年的女人。这一点小等待又算什么?

Sunday, May 19, 2013

奇怪的姑姑

教养很重要。祖母一生忙着打理生意,忽略了陪伴子女左右,养成了一群姑姑怪异又扭曲的个性。 小姑逢年过节都嚷嚷着要请我们到她家吃娘惹菜。我终于禁不住她的吵闹,新年期间互换的电话号码,过后留了一则简讯。没想到,音讯全无,请客事件自然没下文。上周,在表妹婚礼上又见小姑。她又陈腔滥调提起请客一事,我控诉她没回我简讯,她却埋怨我没指定我们家什么时候有空。我说:“当下就定下日子如何”。哪知她却说家中正装修,一楼厕所大改革,不适合见客,要我们8月份再约。听到这里,我的心冷了一大半。自始至终小姑应该都没想请客的打算吧。我上次到他家也好像是1997年的事了。既然没想联络,又何必提起请客?真是奇怪的姑姑!

Sunday, April 14, 2013

What Then, Beauty Personified?

My blogshop sales recorded an all-time low since 2008. From the days were I could register $1000 profits, my yearly profit last year was just shy of $1.6k. The contrast is startling. The main difference now is choices. The number of plus-size shops are mushrooming like crazy, and the level of competitions and styles available are immense. Naturally the no. of online shoppers have increased too, but not at the speed of the vendors. Some have closed down in the face of evolving times, and I too wondered if I should follow suit. Even, my parents have noticed the drop in packages that I send out, the amt of time in between each bulk of packages which I send out. Of course, my survival is not dependable on the blogshop though the cash had helped bring me on overseas vacations, an indulgence of recent years.

I thought about it and concluded that the blogshop will not die for now. It's been a joyride over the years, a hobby which has given me extra allowance, and allowed me countless hours of online shopping and browsing. Though I meet the occasional troublemaker, majority are nice, even behind the mask of anonymity. $1.5k is still good money to splurge on wants. However given the state of things, the returns must conmensurate the amt of effort which put in. And right now, it's much lesser than in the past. Which is just as well, considering that I know have a love life to look into. :)