爱自己

明天这个时候我就失恋了。相隔上回太久了，我不记得这是什么心情。但我已经是熟女，应该扛得起这份失落。


明日的策略是且战且行，他问什么我就答什么，不多不少。最重要的是做自己，爱自己，认真为自己的健康负责任。


然后一切回归平静，云淡风轻。

连名带姓

作词：葛大为

零七年 那一首定情曲的前奏
要是依然念念不忘 太不称头
早放生彼此 好好过 都多久

你怎么像标本 杵在我心里头
后来的那几个 又没做错什么
他们口中自私的我
犯了偷窃时间的错 复制贴上你的爱

也很精彩的你 不甘寂寞
这圈子不太大 多少听说
欣赏你流浪 像是种信仰
我真这么想

再被你提起 已是连名带姓
谎称是友谊 却疏远得可以
多少人爱我
偏放不下你 是公开的秘密
只剩你没拆穿我

再处心积虑 终究事不关己
哪来的勇气 我就是不灰心
我且爱且走
其实在等你 是仅有的默契
你会不会又错过 我没有把握

算不清 多少个跨年夜一起过
要是依然念念不忘 太不称头
早放生彼此 好好过 都多久

你怎么像标本 杵在我心里头
后来的那几个 又没做错什么
他们口中自私的我
犯了偷窃时间的错 复制贴上你的爱

也很精彩的你 不甘寂寞
这圈子不太大 多少听说
欣赏你流浪 像是种信仰
我真这么想

再被你提起 已是连名带姓
谎称是友谊 却疏远得可以
多少人爱我
偏放不下你 是公开的秘密
只剩你没拆穿我

再处心积虑 终究事不关己
哪来的勇气 我就是不灰心
我且爱且走
其实在等你 是最后的默契
要是我们又错过 就别再回头

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久久一次会遇到一首攻入心脏的歌曲， 任由它回荡在心间，一直可扩散、蔓延，百听不厌。

Happy Birthday Tmr

On the eve of my birthday, and as I was preparing for my first work week of the year, I finally filed my hospital documents away. For the first time, I found courage to stare long and hard at photographs of my wound, taken 3 weeks away. I took stock of my days in the ward, the recovery process at home, and the emotions that accompanied the initial pain and immobility. I’m thankful that the recovery has been smooth and despite my really low pain threshold, I had been able to withstand, adapt to, and control the pain, and feel it slip away with every passing day.

It’s great to be alive and possess a healthy mind and body. Your health is your greatest asset and it should never be compromised for work, money, other people's priorities or any other excuse, because there is no substitute that even comes close.
As I approach my birthday, I promise to love myself more, and surround myself with people who love me back. No more time for negative people or experiences.
Loving life, and living life,

Happy Birthday Janice (tomorrow)!

New Year's Eve Musings

On the last day of 2017, I'd like to thank everyone who's a friend, in whatever special way you have extended your care, concern, love and affection towards me. Thanks to those who came by to visit.
We all tend to define the value of friendship through the amount of laughter and fun we derive from someone's company.
But the past month has taught me to treasure the friends that stood by me through adversity. 因为享乐很容易，但共患难才是真友情!
...

（Of course I'm typing all this in my bed, as I can't move much. But today I can finally lie on my back. So yay!)

我想你了

有時經過您的房間，還是會有股錯覺。彷彿把頭一探，依舊是您的笑臉 ，您不曾離開。