太迟了

在退烧中。我始终做不到热脸贴冷屁股。我无法喜欢一个对我忽冷忽热的人。喜欢我就直接地走过来，几番猜测几番迟疑，快乐中失望，失望中复活，实在累了。如果是我自作多情，就让它到此为止。男女之间不能暧昧太久。久了就变好朋友，然后什么都尴尬了。曾经我漠视你对我的殷勤态度，如今回想，后知后觉。我为我的错负责任，如今是尝尽报应的时候。我也认了。

今后，就做朋友。

I Wanna Be Around

I wanna be around to pick up the pieces
When somebody breaks your heart
Some somebody twice as smart as I

A somebody who will swear to be true
As you used to do with me
Who'll leave you to learn
That mis'ry loves company, wait and see

I mean, I wanna be around to see how he does it
When he breaks your heart to bits
Let's see if the puzzle fits so fine

And that's when I'll discover that revenge is sweet
As I sit there applaudin' from a front-row seat
When somebody breaks your heart
Like you, like you broke mine
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I have been lusting after the OST of "Midnight in the Garden of Good & Evil" for more than 10 years. It has been especially hard to find since the movie was a flop and I don't think it was ever shown in Singapore. I bought it for "This Time the Dream's on Me" but have since discovered other gems on this marvellous album. This is one of them. I just love revenge songs! I always believe the best form of revenge is watching someone fall spectacularly through the hands of others, cos if this person fucked up your life, he/she most certainly didn't stop just at you. Such people experience relish bullying others, so there will come a time when someone else tougher than them destroys them. Then you didn't even need to lift a finger.

Tony Bennett is a legend in the jazz world apparently, having performed since 1949. He is 88 today.

曲婉婷 - 承認

You know you are headed for hell when you think every song is about you and your stupid little crush. I hate you and I hate myself for feeling this way about you. I hope I get this off my chest before you or I die.



你總是一副不在意的樣子
在我面前笑嘻嘻，
話語如兒戲 我對你充滿疑意
然而當他的手揮舞在我的肩臂
突然你的眉間多了一絲嚴厲
而在你眼裡找到的卻是憐惜
你轉過身去，拳已攥緊

你承認吧，你需要我，
可你需要更多的是勇氣
你害怕失去更害怕一個人的孤寂
我承認了，我需要你
選擇友誼是對愛情的逃避
試著拋開懷疑，
因為我已經無力再抗拒

我總是猜不透你的用意
曾經試圖一而再，再而三讀懂你
如果說我不在意，
那也是一齣戲，這不是秘密
在你面前我無須掩蓋什麼東西
因為你懂我的點點滴滴
我只是來不及，承認自己
看不清，弄不明
我不想再猜測什麼，
只要聽你說〞我需要你！〞

感觉不到

那些心碎的字眼
不是我擅长的话
究竟我们怎么会走到今天这一个局面

而你总是用沉默来答复我
从认识后那几年
直到分手这一天

这不是你的错
只是我再也感觉不到
被爱的理由
当初捧在手心里的温柔
如今抱了也觉得难受

或许是我的错
只是我再也感觉不到
坚持的理由
当时甜蜜许下的愿望
如今剩下残忍的真相
我们无言以对 无力挽回

那放不下的从前
闭上眼都看得见
究竟我们怎么会走到今一天

暧昧

今年我们在不同的时间到了同个庙宇，做了同个祈求，买了大同小异的护身符。

距离他买护身符已有半年。我问他爱情运周转了吗？他只说认识异性的机会提高了。

一直没有机会告诉他其实他的护身符已经灵验了。他买的时间与我开始无故梦见他的时候吻合。

最近再与他见面，突然发现或许我们更适合做朋友。就像曾经有人唱过＂当作朋友轻松惬意，谈到爱情难免举棋不定＂。

怕举了棋，就会把现在的关系搞砸。年龄越大，越是输不起。